just something to post

August 1, 2007

Before, I felt like my blogsite was my extended memory board - more like a penseive.  I didn't care that only few friends knew about it. I even intentionally restricted most friends from knowing it. It's simply served as my diary in the world wide web which I hoped in time would be fun to look back. Most get-aways, heartfelt realizations, quarter-life dilemmas I tried to encapsulate in my posts. Eventually, the more I write about them, the better I feel about each experience… more of like a friend you're excited to share juicy what-have-you's with.

Looking back and reading previous posts, I still feel the excitement I felt when I was writing them. In retrospect, I found it funny how I made a mountain out of a mole on some quarter-life issues.

Sadly now, I don't have the will to write anymore.  I don't know if this is because my post from my old blogsite have not been migrated yet. I don't know if my life have really become busy as my friends claimed but I don't feel any busier. I don't know if this is because my life has really lost it's excitement though there are many instances that I thought were worth writing about. Perhaps, it's that simple. I don't have the will to write. Period. Perhaps I'm in a stage where whatever I'm experiencing is worth remembering and I don't need a space in the www to remind me of that. I don't know.

To the blogging goddess that bestowed me the spirit and thrill of blogging, please grace me some blogging dust again!

tagged: random q&a

July 31, 2007

A long overdue tag from Alia. 

1. Where is your dad right now?
        Batangas, probably sleeping.
    
2. Last time you kissed someone?
        Monday- when I left Batangas 

3. Name five things you did today.
        - re-read HP1
        - Slept all day
        - rode MRT
        - attended classes
        - check mails
 
4. Last person you text messaged?
        Corleai.
   
5. What kind of phone do you have?
        W850i SE.

6. Where does your bestfriend work?
        Well, "bestfriends". One in NSCB, one in Chikka, one in Etelecare.

7. What are you listening to?
        My bosses talking in the background.  

8. What do you smell like?
        I smell like ice cream… hehe.

9. What color are your eyes?
        Black.   

10. Have you ever done a Chinese fire drill?
        "Chinese" meaning???

11. What color is your bedroom floor?
        Brown turning black because of the dirt… hehe.

12. Do you have a chair in your room? w/c room? bedroom?
        No.

13. What are you doing tomorrow?
        I'll watch Ratatouille with my friends.

14. Do you know someone named Betsy?
        No.  

15. What color is your mom’s hair?
        Naturally black. But it's kind of black-brown right now because of the dye.
 
16. Do you have a dog?
        Used to. 

17. Do you remember singing songs as a kid?
        Of course!

18. Are you married?
        No.

19. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
       Last Monday.

20. Do you play an instrument?
        Used to.
  
21. Do you like fire?
        Yes! Arsonist ako sa past life ko.
   
22. Are you allergic to anything?
        Dust, pollen.
  
23. Do you have a crush on anyone?
        Of course

24. Do you have a bestfriend?
        I'd rather say, "bestfriends".

25. Have you ever been to a spa?
        Yes - Last time with my mom. 

26. Did you take science all 4 yrs. of High School?
        Of course.

27. Do you like butterflies?
        Yup!

28. Do you miss someone right now?
        I don't know exactly. Perhaps. 

29. Do you think they miss u too?
        Hope so.

30. Have you ever seen your school counselor?
       Yes! I was a real pasaway in HS..

 My answers are so non-sense. haha 

weirdo me

July 11, 2007

I've been tagged by tin-tin because according to her, she wants to know me more. Naks! Here are 15 weird (define weird please) things about me…

1.   I want to remember the date I quit smoking so I always want to set it at the start of the month. I just like the thought that in the future I can tell my kids, "You know what? It was the start of the month of blah-blah that I gave up smoking…" That way, I can also easily calculate how long I've been not smoking.

2.   I hate unlimitext. I hate people who forward messages just for the sake of forwarding though we know that they are just maximizing their unlimitxt subscription. I even told someone to exclude me from her distribution list because she sends me 10 corny jokes everyday.

3.   I hate chain text, email, what-have-you. Who wouldn't?

4.   My harmonious co-existence with my family has a shelf life of 1 week. Don't get me wrong. I super love my family and I want to see them as much as possible but most of the time, beyond 4 days of staying close to them, we start to argue on many things.

5.   I got drank for for a week (especially on the night before) before my US embassy interview. That morning, I collapsed there and got my visa denied.

6.   I always feel that I have a deprived childhood. I have never bathed under the rains. I have never climbed a real tree (unless you consider climbing an aratilis tree with the help of the fence). I have never played patintero till we had it in PE in school. I have never played tumbang-preso. But I still feel that I enjoyed my childhood only that I could have enjoyed it more.

7.   I was an ultimate pasaway in high school. I got the lowest Character grades to think that I had many pasaway guy classmates. Almost all my teachers walked out because of me and my friends. Others even cried.Most of the times I wasn't even aware that they were mad at me.  I even spanked my Physics teacher's butt when I saw her in the hallway.

8.   I was still one of the favorites of our principal, her holiness Sr. Catalina, or so she claimed because I still get good grades. Some of my classmates also claimed that I was a favorite of out Physics teacher. hehe!

9.   I felt that I have a bipolar disorder when I watched one episode of House with that topic because I have extreme characteristics and I never get most things done. Before, I wanted to paint and I saved to buy oil painting materials. I painted for a whole day and after that, I never touched those brushes again. I bought tarot cards and intensively researched for a month about it but stopped when I wasn't even half-way through the deck studying it.

10.   I hate frogs, cockroaches, spiders, insects, etc. (Kahit patay na) but I can't bear to kill them because of plain fear and because I feel that I might disturb the balance of the ecosystem. I want them to die on a a natural cause. hehe…

11.   I hate dogs and cats and pets in general. The only pet I can tolerate is fish simply because you don't touch it and it doesn't touch you. That's it, I hate pets that cuddle. I guess I can tolerate a dog if it is the matapang type. Also, I don't see the point of taking care of toy dogs.

12.   As cynical as I may appear, I still believe in destiny, soul mates, serendipity. I still wish on stars and I  trust on signs and lucky charms.

13.   I still feel a pang of pain/ jolt of excitement (I can't figure out)  everytime I hear he-who-should-not-be-named's name though I don't have feelings for him anymore.

14. I am really bipolar because I can't bring myself to finish this list.

 

I want to know these people more so I'm tagging iyna, mica, grace, kamlon and alia.

777

July 7, 2007

wow! 07-07-07 na! This is so phenomenal! hehe… At talagang ginawan ko ng paraan na eksakto 00:00:00 ung entry ko. Pordat, I can make 7 wishes and they will all come true… Walang pakialaman. Entry ko to!

1. Sana ay hindi nakakahiya ang midterms result ko sa Econ. Pashnea ang exam! Napakalupit ni Sir Joel magpa-exam. Si Joel na walang malay! Sobrang nahihiya ako kasi kilala niya akong Econ major. Feeling ko dala-dala ko ang bandera ng UPLB Econ Dept. hehe

2. Sana ay may creamer lagi! Mas masarap kasi ang coffee pag may creamer. Para sa Econsoc, kayo ang creamer ko.. haha. Ako ang kape. That explains my color.

3. Sana ay makapunta ako sa Solid Gold Ball ng brods. Once in a century lang to!

4. Sana ay makapag-aral na ko sa midterms ng Accounting at Quanti.

5. Sana ay matuloy ko na ang pag-quit ng yosi.

6. Sana ay maging akin ka na.. haha!

7. Sana ay matupad din ang pitong kahilingan ng makakabasa nitong post na to… Naks! 

 

bakit wala kang bf?!

July 2, 2007

I want to post this again! Last week, my sorority sisters had a get-together and the 'question-that-shouldn't-be-asked' was asked time and again. Tsk tsk! (Haven't migrated posts from my old site yet. so I'm simply reposting.)  

Almost everyone seems to ask if I have a boyfriend already. And of course everytime I just blankly say no, they pop-up my most dreaded and most insulting question of all time: Bakit?!

Every time my maternal-side family gets together the subject of ridicule is my 30-year-old uncle who is single. He had a girlfriend and they were nearing the marriage point but because of some circumstances which he shared only to me and my brother Clyde, they broke up. Now he is in Australia. Gawd! He is barely a year in a foreign land, and considering what he has gone through living the real deal alone, I must say that I'm proud because he is doing a great job there yet our family thinks that he isn't complete yet and should be in a relationship soon to be happy. Of course since he isn't here to defend himself, I defend for him. I don't want my younger cousins to have an impression that having a relationship should be one's ultimate goal. (Though that is always debatable. I don't have anything against those who has made relationships their comfort blanket. I have tons of friends who are like that but that just isn't my idea of full happiness now.) And so the limelight turns to me and they bombard me with questions. Kelan mo ba ipapakilala ang boyfriend mo? Kelan ka ba magboboyfriend? Bakit ba wala kang boyfriend?

Of course my answer will always be delivered jokingly. E kung nabibili lang ba yan e di matagal na ko nakabili. Jokingly yet I mean it. Always. You see, Beng and I had this discussion about how our families always question our being single. Our conclusion: Kung nada-download yan e di baka di lang isa ang nadownload ko. I just wish I can deliver the same answer everytime my mom's friends ask me the question so i can enlighten their narrow thinking.

Most parents restrict their children to have relationships while still studying and yet right after graduation people ask you about introducing your boyfriend like earning a diploma entitles you to a bonus boyfriend. To them who ask me these unspeakable questions, I know they just wish me well and they just want me to realize that being in a relationship is a happy thing. Don't they think I already know that. I am happy for them that they are in relationships but can't they just be happy that I AM HAPPY already even if I am single. (Much more I hope when I am in a relationship but that again is always debatable. What applies to Juan does not always apply to Pedro.)

It's not that I have anything against relationships or I've become a lesbian. Hell no! I want one someday. That give-you-the-last-piece-of-cheesecake feeling. It's just that it's not in my priorities and we can say that I am yet to be prioritized by it.

Anyway, given that I end up not marrying at all, I still think that that isn't the worst thing that can happen to a person. Statistics show a large proportion of failed marriages anyway. What I'm saying is a man isn't a ticket to happiness. I am single. Deal with it!