pila balde

March 6, 2009

Mica had an idea of setting up a prayer brigade. 9 sisses will pray for each other’s special intention every 9pm for 9 consecutive days. It’s kinda sweet and weird. Sweet that we are praying for each other. Some of the sisses I don’t even know well. Weird that I am telling my special intention to someone I hardly know. At least Corleia and Mica are in the brigade. Among the 3 of us, we have a specialized our intentions (out of shame to tell our specific intentions to the others).. hehe. Adik ba tayo sa mga special intentions natin?

When you ask for something in a prayer, are you specific? I’m really scared to ask for specifics when I pray out of fear that I might get what I want and yet regret that I asked for it. It happened before and I don;t want to sound like the spoiled brat daughter. Lately though, I think I am being specific in my intentions. There are certain things that I badly want. I don’t know when is it time to give up praying for it and not knowing it scares me.

When do you know when to give up? I’m normally a person with little patience. I hate waiting. 10-15 minute in a queue bores me and will normally storm out for that because the queue tomorrow might be better. But how do I know when there is no tomorrow and decide that I should be waiting for it today? How do I know if it’s worth the wait?

*Parang ang lalim pero ito po ay epekto lang ng pagkaiwan ko ng ATM card sa Batangas.

25 things about me

March 1, 2009

I always have a hard time doing this. I was not tagged but i enjoy reading entries so I might as well do mine. I initially typed “25 weird things about me” but decided on deleting weird because I don;t wind my entries interesting enough to be weird.

1.  I don’t know how to cook rice. You can buy rice anywhere so why bother cooking it?
2. My head is accident prone - My head got stitched last December. I got hit in the head during a frat rumble in college. My chin got stitched when I was a kid.
3. I badly want to donate blood. I think it’s the most selfless and cheapest way to help. Perhaps this is the explanation for all the accidents. hehe
4. I’ve always wanted to attend a retreat where I don’t know anyone. I feel that if I have my friends with me, the uber-makulit Emcee will take the scene. At least if others don’t know me, I can renew my self-image.
5. I’ve planned so many times to go somewhere where I can start from scratch. Clean Slate. 
6. I just thought that with post #5 and 6 maybe I have issues with myself I haven’t come to terms with.
7. I used to hate my name “Mariam” because people always mistook it for Miriam or Marian but I got used to it. I also started to like it because of A Thousand Splendid Suns.
8. I feel that I have a compulsion to do something ALWAYS. If I’m on my way to office, I have to read something/watch something on iPod/sleep/ anything but merely staring in the traffic. Parang may ADHD nga raw ako.
9. I need to read something always. Sadly, I haven’t read any book besides those from class since January although I keep on buying new books.
10. I did not like Twilight. I find the story weird. 
11. I first tasted Kapeng barako in LB to think that I am from Batangas.
12. I was active in Theater acting in HS. I want to take part again soon. Where do I start?
13. To think that I sleep like a whale, there was a time that I had to take sleeping pills.
14. I also tried cough syrup. hehe.. ADIK!
15. I have a tendency to be an addict so I control myself in the things I try.
16. I think one of my officemates thought I was addicted to weed then because of my strong love for reggae and Bob Marley and then he learned I went to Sagada twice. One time one asked if I have some available. Weird siya di ba, hindi ako.
17. I think I can quit smoking anytime, I just don’t want to.
18. I don’t think I’ll give up alcohol though. There are times I think, I may be alcoholic.
19. I love spontaneity but lately I’m becoming more of a planner.
20. I am a person of habit. If others cannot keep doing the same thing for me, I ask them not to start at all. I just might get used to it. (To the shock of my boss… hehe)
21. I badly want to figure out my passion. I think after MBA, I’ll be enrolling in weird courses.
22. I plan of writing 365 thing I may want to pursue. Do them for a year and rate them everyday until I deduce what I really want most in life.
23. I am great procrastinator. I have planned 3, 4, 12, 17 but I haven’t started on anything at all.
24. I have 1.5 years worth of contribution in SSS that did not go to my account because I gave the wrong SSS number. I could have settled things a year ago if I’m not a procrastinator. Up to this day, I haven’t arranged it yet although what I simply need was an affidavit of loss for something.
25. I am Single Since Birth.