what drives you?

I have a very good relationship with my boss. Ideal if I may say. Later last night, I had a one-on-one discussion with him on my Performance Objectives. As always I was given a ridiculously long list of things-to-do. I was very pleased though with his feedback that I am doing good. He even said that he could not ask for more. You see, he’s a very brilliant guy and I put high regard on his comments. He said though that I can improve on one particular task. I said I’m not too keen about this one particular task because in the first place I don’t see the value in implementing it. I may be in the wrong mindset but it’s just how I feel. He said how he thinks there’s still more that I can do in my role but I seemed unwilling to do more.

The meeting was set for 30 minutes but whenever we have ‘these’ conversation, we tend to become so engaged that we were not aware that we’ve extended for hours. I think I’ve become very comfortable with him that I admit that there may be some things an employee should not tell in the workplace, much more towards your boss. Anyway, I ended up saying I’m not even aware what my priorities are. I shared how I had a series of reflections brought by my quarterlife rites.

He shared that in one of the speeches of our CEO, life should by a square. A balance of 4 things: Family, Career, Community and Health. Inow wonder if I said the right things when I shared how I have a different mindset. I no longer put career in my priorities. It’s not an end, but simply a means for my real priorities: Family, Socials, Me Time (health & spirit). Don’t get me wrong. I love what I’m doing but at the end of the day I’m just doing what I have to do and not because I really want to do it. At least my performance did not falter despite this contemplation and realizations (did I really realize something?). I’m driven to work but I have a stronger drive for other things that can only be sustained if I continue working. We agreed on something and I couldn’t ask for a better boss with what we had towards the end of our talk.

So now I’m still confused if I really have set the right prioroties? Am I in the right mindset on the things that drive me? I’m confused but I still  like to give credit to the banality of my quarterlife contemplations that happen quarteryly.