adrenaline rush

March 11, 2009

I have been so busy this lately. Meetings even on Sundays. Cases galore! I think for the longest time, I’ve finally come to terms to commit to all the expectations of working student life. Then, I was taking MBA for sake of doing something besides work. For the sake of the much-coveted MBA diploma. Now, I think I’m really enjoying going through the cases and analyzing them, making sure I’m taking the lead and sharing my profoundest inputs. Work is crazy as well with the global crisis and all but my drive is crazier. Sometimes I’m surprised with my own adrenaline rush haywire.  Naks! Lately, I’m willing to take crackers and cereal drinks for lunch to be in front of the PC and finish things. I’m willing to have less sleep. There was one time where I was not even aware that I had just one meal throughout the whole day until I was in the cab home. I have no food home that time so I had to ask the driver to wait for me to buy food on the way. Crazy!

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In one of my subjects we were asked to make a reaction paper about planning. I wanted to approach it not in an MBA-student’s perspective so I commented as a post-Quarter Life Crisis survivor. I’ve suddenly had retrospective thoughts of wander. Well, I’m a spontaneous person but in various aspects, I’m a natural planner. I think this was primarily the reason why I had QLC in the first place. I was planning while my friends are saying that being in your twenties is all about whims and wonder.

I always tell them to bear in mind the fable of two cats and a dog. Cat A and B were comparing notes on their plans in case an angry dog came along. Cat A had one strategy carefully thought out, while Cat B boasted of several options, all of them equally feasible. When the monster dog finally came, Cat A naturally employed his sole plan and successfully escapes from the raging dog. Cat B, on the other hand took some time pondering which option to take and died. Before, I wouldn’t have agreed with the analogy if you would ask me. What makes it different from our situation is the element of urgency. I do not believe we are at a critical crossroad demanding our instant response. Cat B was facing a life-and-death situation and needed to employ an effective plan. His multitude of options proved to be more of a liability than an asset. But then again, perhaps maturity is teaching me something else now – the sense of planning. In life, if you always consider that something is not urgent, you will not commit into action. Sometimes you have to be the one to jolt the complacency and set a level of urgency on things.

 

We set the levels of urgency of things in our lives. We are the vision makers of our queendoms. We set the rules of our playing field, as Prof Pineda would have put it. And what better way to do something when in fact you are the very person who crafted the plan.

 

Sometimes, I’m ashamed that I’m becoming too much of a planner. I even count the number of hours of sleep everyday and plan it so I’ll end up sleeping in even number of hours (a weird habit, I know!). Weird but now I don’t think being a planner is that bad anymore.

 

Overrated is overrated. Everyone is into spontaneity lately. I better be different!

 

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I guess I’m just so fullfilled today! We were almost done in our ooooh-eeeey MIT requirements - one of the few benefits of being the first group. I was also pleased with out presentation in Control. Ang adik naming prof almost caught us off guard when he wanted someone else in our group to report. Mark was so set for it pa naman.  I ended up reporting! Scary! I thing I was cussing half the time I was in front but Prof said he was pleased. He called me beauty - his codename only his students will understand. hehe.. Life is good! Simple kilig sharing: Superhero daw ako sabi ng crush ko. *lovesick little puppy dog look