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August 7, 2008

I feel so numb. I have a lot of things in my to-do list. In a few minutes I’ll be entering the oven again to discuss something with big lolo and yet here I am blogging because I don’t think anyone would understand what I am feeling.

Last night I cried out of frustrations. I cried! Kill me now. I don’t easily cry but when I’m frustrated I do. I feel I’m an incompetent employee, undeserving MBA student, forgotten friend. I have consumed myself with things that can eat me alive.

It’s not the first time that I feel this frustrated in my job but this time I feel so helpless. Part of it perhaps is that there are so many things I cannot share right now with my office friends. I hold some confidential information which is actually the cause of my frustrations.

So much for that!

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Am I destined to be left out?

Last night I received an IM from a friend asking if I’m going to join them for some surprise meet-up. I was in a meeting so when I was free to reply, she was already offline. So I thought, ok. No big deal! That’s ok, I’m busy and they know that but then they should have asked me anyway. Wala lang. I feel left out. But perhaps, one of them really didn’t feel like seeing many people because he hardly communicates (with us o baka with me lang?!) lately. FINE! Then, this afternoon, I read an email confirming their meet-up. FINE! Friends always leave me. What’s new?!

Frustrations is a fact of life. You learn from it. You get strong though it. Sometimes, in retrospect they can be wondrous blessings in disguise. Sometimes, they are just plain frustrations you have to deal with!

Posted by emceerious at 5:14 pm | permalink

Previous Comments

okey this might come in surprise, but sometimes i feel the same way, ahe …see you’re not alone, i always talk to myself whenever i feel that way. this is my unsolicited advice, try to losen up sometimes, you know who you are, think positive , and not everyday is the same.

Posted by chocoporridge at August 7, 2008, 7:06 pm

thanks chocoporridge. i want to condition myself naman pero thanks. i am not alone. hehe

Posted by emceerious at August 8, 2008, 2:15 pm

emcee, i hope you know na nandito lang ako.. kahit na hindi na tayo nagkikita or nag-uusap. and don’t feel left-out. coz you’re not. we know how busy you are.. basta if you need someone to just listen to your rantings, just text me. khet na late at night na, at pwede na ako umalis ng office puntahan kita. sana matuloy na breakfast natin

Posted by tin-tin at August 11, 2008, 1:13 pm

I feel you Badaat!!! miss yah!juz wish I’m there in your solitude moments and sumhow lessen you worries. Basta everything will fall into place. Phase lang yan tapos magiging ok din ang lahat. Lam ko busy kau lagi bsta txt lang pag may free tym mag kopi :)

Posted by Jo-Ann at August 13, 2008, 4:03 pm

ang strong naman ng entry na to….i can visualize ur face while making this entry…ill join tin in saying na ur not left out no….dont ever think that way….as in…nakakaoffend….heeeheee!!!you can always text and kol me(Although i know im always the last in the list!hahaha!!joking!)Chill ka lang emchi…chill…..missyah missyah missyah……kahet di mo ko miss!!!missyah pa ren..hope matuloi na ang meet up naten someday soon!!!Mwah!!!!

Posted by joysie at August 13, 2008, 4:39 pm

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