labyrinth

April 30, 2008

So many things to do, so little time. So many things to say but part of me is thinking of how my friends would react when they read this. Do I write or do I not? Part of misses the days when I can blog with all my heart’s content and not consider even in a moment’s notice who would read. After all, it’s just an outlet of my emotions. An external memory board of my day-to-day happenings.

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Just my luck. I’m no Lindsay Lohan fun but honestly I feel that I am a very lucky person. Not just blessed but lucky. All of us are blessed in our own rights but I really feel lucky. Bonus-lucky I mean. Remember when I wrote ‘Connecting the Dots’ and on how I realized how one bad luck brought me to greater heights. Then I wrote how I wanted to be in an extremely busy state again, a weird thing to ask for I know. Then luck struck again. I got promoted. A position where I am outright unexperienced. Sometimes I feel that I got the position because of my charms and my strong convincing skills (convincing them that I am highly capable of the position). I was in Cloud 9 when they told me that I was the one they chose. I was competing with the seniors in the office, one of which is my direct superior. Plus I feel that they really have all the reasons not to choose me because ‘Image counts’. I don’t want this to be a yeah-i-got-promoted-arrogant-type-of-post. It’s just that, I am overwhelmed of the trust the gods of our company has given me. Really! If you knew my track record here, you’ll be surprised on the direction of things.

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Lately, I am always with the wakeboarders. We always have surprised meet-ups. We exchange emails and text messages on a regular basis. It’s them that I consult to whenever something is bothering me because if there’s enyone who know more of me lately, it’s them. Honestly I see them more often than the BJs or even my housemates. Haha.. I’m not complaining though. I am really happy. Here’s the thing. I sometimes feel that we are making our group exclusive. There are a couple of times when by chance upon a sis and voila… dead air. Not dead air-dead air but you can feel that we are not our usual selves. We have grown accustomed to some personal jokes that even though there is no intention to make other people out-of-place we are capable of effortlessly doing it. We all come from different academic ang Econsoc batches. I can’t pinpoint a specific commonality except that all of us girls had been Externals heads or perhaps all of us are officers of Econsoc at one time. Perhaps we simply enjoy each others company. Love you guys!

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Bungee-jumpers, i miss you all. Wala lang! : )

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Art of doing nothing. The last two trips I had were art-of-doing-nothing weekends. It’s doing things you can do at home but you want it to do it somewhere else. Ok, there was swimming but it’s the only add-on activity we had. I don’t know if its practical to spend more money and do the same thing in another place but honestly, I’m really enjoying it. On my next trip though, I wanna do something new.

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Negotiables and non-negotiables. Do you have a non-negotiable list? Well, one time, it was one of our topics. Honestly I can’t find anything non-negotiable about a guy except his height. Though I say I don’t want to fall for a brod because the pessimisitc side of me thinks that falling out of a relationship with a brod can cause dispute to the org, I don’t think I am still in the position where my affiliation defines my personality. In college, perhaps yes, but right, I think not anymore. Religion, uhm, I can’t tell. As long as he has faith, anything goes. As long as he isn’t an atheist. Family. Uhmm, I don’t thinks so. I think I always have an easy time realting with the oldies and other family members. IQ. Perhaps! haha.. I don’t buy the "Basta mabait" prospect in a guy. Heller! Mabait is relative and all people have a trait that can make us say that he is mabait. Plus, a mabait father may not have a mabait child if the upbringing is different but IQ can be genetically passed from one generation to another. Haha. Masama ba? So boils down to my sure-ball non-negotible consideration in a guy: height. For aesthetic purposes. Ang pangit kaya ng mas maliit yung guy kesa girl. Just my opinion. Look at Jules and Assunta. Sila talaga ang example ko! hahaha. And, everything else I am willing to compromise but for height, of course I can’t just cut my legs off. hehe

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Separation anxiety. I don’t if it’s because I’m missing my family so much. I haven’t gone to Batangas for a long time because it’s summer but when I went there last weekend, I was surprised that my youngest brother is ‘nagbibinata’ na. His voice is changing and he has grown tall so fast. I can’t believe it. Though he is a late-bloomer because another cousin who is months younger than him has undergone adolescence way ahead I still can’t bring myself to the idea that our little boy is nearly a grown-man. I still call him ‘love’ though. Another thing, I was the one who sent Angela to Summer School before I went to Manila. I couldn’t bring myself to leave her there all alone by herself. I felt that she’s too young to be study at all. She’s so small and young and fragile. Ahhh! And this isn’t my kid I’m talking about. Perhaps all the things I don’t like in kids has accumulated and turned into my uber-likeness and love for Angela. Every little thing she does is magic.

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Summer flings. I want to be inspired. I don’t know if summer fling is the answer but.. I want! I want! Not exactly a summer fling. Just someone to inspire me. I keep getting hirits about me not having a boyfriend. Haller?! Nabibili ba yon? Nakakaoffend din ang mga guys na nagtatanong bakit wala kang boyfriend. Girlfriendin mo kaya ako. haha..

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Blogs. I don’t think if people I don’t know would find my site interesting. Lately, the underground gossip in the office is all about my officemate’s blog. It’s exciting to read hers but there’s just too much information. I want my blog to be irresistible to read but I don’t feel comfortable sharing things I’d only share with my friends. Just a thought.

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This is what all my suspended emotional entanglements have brought me. Incoherent entries. hahaha..

art of doing nothing

April 14, 2008

Last weekend, Anj, Boyen, Hannah and I went to Potipot Island Zambales. It was an art-of-doing-nothing weekend, something new because every out-of-town trip I have, we always cook some activities,  some timetable to follow, some itineraries to stick to. This was something new for all of us. We didn’t even bother much to plan. We just exchanged text messages, take note: walang pilitan ang naganap and voila! We still managed to let the get-together push through.

It was a simple summer outing but is also a celebration for the year (in MBA) that has been. Also, Boyen is taking an LOA next year (unti-unti talaga nila akong iniiwan.. huhu). He’s going to CDO na to work there but hopefully, he’ll be reassigned soon. It was just the four of us. Urven has work. Sef has therapy sessions. Ronald, well, we didn’t even bother to invite him.. hehe.. bounce kagad yun e.

So what exactly happened in our art-of-doing-nothing-weekend?

Stargazing. Highlight ito! Imagine a starry starry night. Beach. Mats. Ipod. We all saw shooting stars but Anj and I were too excited when we saw one. Wish!

Alcohol. Aba syempre! Tequila with pineapple due to lemon scarcity. hehe

Videoke. Konti lang kasi late na raw.

Bones. We watched the series. Just a few episodes.

Stones. We played with the stones to bounce on water. Basta kung anuman yun!

Chips overload. Imagine chips for breakfast and lunch. hehe…

Sleeeeeep. Imagine, we were supposed to go to the island 5.30 am but wdh, vacation nga di ba? So we woke up 2 hours later. At the island, I was asleep third of the time we were there. hehe

Swimming. Beach nga e!

Photoshoot! Kailangan pa ba sabihin to? Pero iba ang photoshoot this time. Career mode talaga! hehe

To add icing to our cake, gumawa kami ng konting eksena ni Anj sa great Philippine Sea!haha… On our way back to the main island of Zambales, instead of of the normal boat ride, we just held unto the wings of the bangka (ang katig, bow). 5 mins lang naman e. Lo and behold, that I though would be one of the longest 5 minutes of my life. Full body massage. Saltwater overload. Sa mga wakeboarders at banana boat riders, move over. Wala yan sa experience namin. hehe

Kulang pa ang icing. Kailangan, may cherry pa sa ibabaw. So we had another eksena sa (insert drumroll here) presinto sa Subic! hahahaha… ayoko ko ng ikwento ang mga kaganapan. Basta: putik, kotse, pula, atribidang nanay, walang-nagawang anak.

Super saya and kahit alabyu-alaxan mode ako ngayon!

Anj, Boyen, Hannah, thank you soooo much! Alabhet! Hindi natin kailangan ng dooobie para maging scooby-doobie happy! hahaha

To Ulupong and batang-maang-maangan, salamat rin kasi pinasaya nyo kami! Masarap pala kayong topic para sa mga LSE-ish at bored na nilalang. hehe

holy week 2008

April 9, 2008

This is a long overdue post on our Cagayan de Oro-Camiguin trip and I don’t even know where to start.

It’s not the first time I’m not how for the long holy week vacation. It’s not the first time that I have gone out of town with Cesar, Rey, Germs, Jo-Ann and Daisy. It’s not the first time that Beng wasn’t able to join us in a holy week escapade. Yet, it’s a trip with a lot of first. It’s my first time to go to Mindanao. It’s my first time to try white water rafting and ziplining and I super love it. It’s the first time in 4 years (pinilit talagang maging first time) that I’ve drunk gin bulag again. Anlakas ng trip mo Cesar!

We super missed Beng in the trip and the reality that she’s really living a different life now has sunk in. :,( Too bad she missed the drunkard butanding at the bar. hahaha

I still can’t decide if this post is getting somewhere so perhaps I’ll just thank my WWR buddies. It was really a fun break from our busy lives. Special thanks to two of the greatest guys in my life: To Rey, thanks for not missing our tradition though you’re now working in Singapura. To Cesar, thanks for applying your work in our art of gambling. hehe. Thanks for long sleeves you brought. Though you weren’t able to use it, it was a good source of our laughter for the whole trip. hehe. Corleai, Adan, Bogart and Tin, hmmp, sayang wala kayo!

Summer na talaga! Have a great summer everyone!

april fools

April 1, 2008

It must be my day! I’m a fool! Mygawd! I’m so pasaway!

I have a lot of things to do because of the migration plus I have an exam on Friday which I haven’t reviewed for yet. The least I should be dealing right now are issues with HR and Facilities. I just came from HR and I can feel that they are fuming mad at me. I have been contributing to a wrong SSS number for a year and a half before I realized it. It’s been a year since I’ve discovered but the contributions haven’t been transferred to my real account yet. Now they have to manually backtrack to the documents. I can’t blame them. If I were in their shoe I would have shouted but it’s their work and they have to help me with a smile. I wish I could alleviate their anger. Sorry talaga!

Last night I was face-to-face with the Facilities Manager. I had an offense which is subject to termination. But it was my last day in Sykes yesterday so they could not reprimand me yet right now I’m really scared of the repercussions. I feel sorry for what I did but I do not regret it. I did what I had to do. Sorry talaga!

I know I’m quite pasaway because I can get away with it. Lately, I always say, ‘things will eventually fall in its proper place’ but I know my happy-go-lucky days have limitations.

Promise po. Magtitino na ko! Hindi April Fools hirit yan ha. : )