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I once said that perhaps my current job is the dizizit job I’ve been looking for. When Grace told me that one time in class, I remember answering "For Now". It’s a title of one of the songs in the Avenue Q soundtrack (which was a regular playlist for me in 2007). Yes it’s an ideal job for now because it somehow adjusts to my acad sked and not the other way around. I know many would exchange with my position anytime because my boss is super-motherly OK, my workload is tolerable-OK, my function allows me a lot of perks.

So why do I want to leave an ideal job (again!). Well, I’m not actually leaving but I’ve applied to another post internally which of course will report to another (not very motherly-OK) boss with a completely crazy function and schedule. It’s because I’m getting bored and I want to feel the adrenaline rush again of being unbelievable busy. My days are so complacent lately that I have the plan laid out for the next couple of months which isn’t hard to forecast since it will just be vacation from class, some summer outings and the regular rhythmic things I do at work. I know I’m crazy I don’t find my current life crazy enough and I want a crazier life. Crazy!

Actually nothing is sure yet. Of course there is an OA screening process. But so far, I was part of the top 2 who are shortlisted. Tough luck! But then again, this afternoon, one of the the big bosses talked to me and told me that they are also considering my outside-work life. Regarding acads, I am very willing to adjust and take less load and extend my studies. But what surprised me was that he was not referring to that. They know that I can be outgoing at times and that I have a lot of friends in different departments. I know that they have reasons for considering those things. My "lifestyle" might put me in a difficult situation in implementing projects but somehow I felt I was judged wrongly. I am living the lifestyle I have because my work allows me such luxuries. Those ‘extras’ are the ones that adjust to my ‘basics’ and not the other way around. Kaoffend sila!

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I’m a fun-loving, adventure-seeking, alcoholic party girl but give me a good book and I can be on my own the whole day. I have a messy room and closet but when it comes to work I’m very OC. I can be super apathetic on things (like my Marketing class) but when I’m into something, it really shows (like my Econ because of Yu.. hehe). I’m a walking satellite for chismis but when someone tells me a secret, I keep it. I may act like a bunso when I’m carefree-party mode but I’m a responsible panganay when I plan and act. I’m either your best friend or your worst enemy!

I’m a walking contradiction and I said that it’s one of my assets but now I’m not too sure. At the start I was actually half-hearted to push through so I don’t care if I don’t get the post. I care that I don’t get the post on the basis of my personal life even if I have the potential. Kasalan ko bang marunong akong mag-enjoy! Kasalanan ko bang maging energetic? Di ba more energy mas happy?!