chinese curse

When someone wishes that you have everything you ask for, it’s not a blessing. It’s a curse. It’s the chinese curse. Thought for the week: be careful for what you ask for you might just get it.

When I was younger (younger daw oh) I always felt that most of the time I get what I always ask for. Be it something from my parents or some wishes I asked God to grant me. As Tita Minnie would say, "What Emcee wants, Emcee gets." Lately I don’t know if that really applies. I wonder if anyone I know gets really what he wants.

When I graduated I prayed so hard that I could make it to SMB. I did but eventually I quit for the most mababaw reasons. Then I asked God to give me a research-related post. I got UNDP-funded project. I was in heaven when I got that project. But then I realized that that was still not the job I was looking for. After that I stopped asking for personal petitions in prayers. I feared that I always got what I wanted and it’s a shame that later on I regret asking for it. Aba! Namimihasa ka na Emcee. Wag ka na lang humingi! So I just pray that God lead me to His will. Then I got into the habit of praying for personal intentions of friends because I heard somewhere that when at least 2 people gather in His name, His powers will be stronger. Something to that effect. I felt it also works that way in petitions. hehe

So what am I trying to drive at. Well, nothing profound! It’s just that I don’t know what to ask anymore. I feel like the options of my life are so dichotomous. Black or white. Either I have it or I don’t. Either I’m uber busy or I bored. Gaaawd! Is this the chinese curse because I always change what I want from time to time? Mga chekwa talaga!