real life comes with soundtrack music

February 18, 2008

The better the movie soundtrack, the more emotional appeal it brings to the audience. I’ve always thought that wouldn’t it be nice if in real life there are actually background music on certain events in our lives?

As I was listening to www.dizzler.com, I simply picked random artists and songs and I realized my life has it’s own soundtrack playing. I’m surprised how songs make me wander. Surprised how danceable and fast songs make me wanna cry. Surprised how tearjerker songs now make me laugh.

I can’t help but write when I heard JLo’s All I Have, Beng’s favorite and Nelly’s Ride With Me, E4 song. 

All I Have, like all other songs Beng likes is simply something she can’t bring herself to sing in the right lyrics. ahaha. I wanna laugh and cry at the same time. I’m already missing her now.

Ride With Me is the E4 (EconSoc’s orghouse) song. Wala lang. Matagal ko lang di narinig. Plus may hang-over pa ko ng weekend with E4 buddies.

Hope I can find my ‘24′ song. My ‘23′ song is Real by Plumb. If only it were 24 Flavors instead of 32. : )

 

akalain mo yon!

February 13, 2008

…akalain mong isang grad school prof ang parang HS teacher magalit sa class. Define! She-who-should-not-be-named was almost crying out of anger. Kumusta naman kasi? Di marunong sumunod ng course outline.

…akalain mong I’m super busy lagi sa dating ultra-petiks na work ko but I’m loving it more now.

…akalain mong lagi raw akong aligaga sabi ni Bogart kasi iniisip ko ang nalalapit na pag-alis ni Beng.

…akalain mong narealized ko na lagi na lang akong iniiwan ng mga tao: Joyce, Rey, Mikmik, Urven and now Beng. who’s next?!

…akalin mong dati rati e pumapasok si Beng sa Math 17 na nakashorts at shirt lang? akalain mong minsan wala pa syang bra pag pumupunta kami sa Greenbelt at may dala lang syang sarong. akalain mong ikakasal na siya?

…akalain mong after ng fair kagabi e bumalik pa ako sa office. tsk tsk!

…akalain mong take-home ang marketing exam namin to think na multiple choice at true/false siya.

…akalain mong after two weeks pa pala ang submit non.

…akalain mong ang report ko sa OB e midterms ko na pala at di ko man lang napaghandaan ng todohan.

…pero akalain mong mas natuwa akong di ko alam na midterms na yon.

…akalain mong Feb na! Ambilis ng oras this year! What’s with 2008.

…akalain mong ang bago kong line e "I wanna be inspired" ala "I wanna be complete" ni Piolo.

…akalain mong andami kong nasabi pero initially ang gusto ko lang sabihin e about Prof. She-who-should-not-be-named. 

my bestfriend’s wedding and the sputnik gang

February 11, 2008

This is not a review of Julia Roberts’ movie nor the kanto gang. It’s simply about the upcoming wedding of one of the best friends, Beng and all my hulabaloo  thoughts about it. Last Saturday, we organized a bridal shower and going-away party for her since she’s going to the US for good. Actually, I was in denial of the whole idea. Not in denial of her getting married and all but in denial of my feelings towards the whole thing.

Beng and I have been friends since freshmen years in LB. We were blocmates, batchmates, double-sisses, councilmate, housemates, BJs, travel buddies, name it. As I recall, most spontaneous things I did, I’ve done with her. Through the years, from freshmen orientation to quarterlife crisis confrontations, from simple pagtakas sa dorm trips, klepto days to long weekend travels and out-of-this-world escapades, Beng has been there, one of the few consistent people in my life. Whenever we are together, any place is a hash bar in disguise of a mall, resto, coffee shop. Name it. She’s one person who never fails to surprise me with her hilarious antics. Simply put, she’s a big part of my life and I don’t know if things will ever be the same once she leaves.

I am always too afraid to pray for an inspiration so instead of praying one for myself, I pray that my friends be the ones inspired. For Beng, since we have quite a similar outlook in life, I know that she can sometimes overlook the idea of being seriously involved with someone so for her I’ve always prayed that the right guy be somewhere out there. That’s why I am genuinely happy that she found the guy whom she thinks she’s willing to be committed with for the rest of her life.

Yesterday, after the bashful bridal shower, Beng, Joyce, Daisy and I (too bad Maui has an appointment she couldn’t afford to miss) went to UPLB to visit our former housemates (I’m not technically a housemate but I  practically stay in their house during our thesis days) and college friend, Pogs. Sputnik. Travel buddies. So it was a whole day of driving around, chikahan, laugh trip.

While driving around campus, we talked about the good old days we had. There’s a story in every building, street, tambayan, on-campus and off-campus sites.  I was telling them that if the concept of heaven in ‘5 People you Meet in Heaven’ is true, UPLB would definitely be my heaven, however, I told them that I felt that I already outgrew the yearning to go back to college. Inside, I was thinking that going there was the final impractical visit I would pledge as a closure to the place I so love.

We had a late lunch at Palaisdaan and attended mass at the makasaysayang St. Therese Chapel. During the mass, in the middle of a very upbeat church song, Joyce was crying over the idea Beng leaving and us losing touch of each other. I have not yet thought about it because lately we rarely  see each other to begin with and perhaps there won’t be much of a difference with Beng leaving. I plainly said that we can talk as often as we want through constant text, calls and IM chats and the thought the the other person is so much far away makes us check on the person more constantly that sometimes we know more of people who are far away than people you bump around too often. Just an idea to console her.

Later we kidnapped Pogs and went to Batangas and stayed overnight in our house. We had the pamorningan chikahans. Our way back to Manila we were all just laughing, giggling, non-stop gossiping ang chit-chatting. Only now I realized that her flight date is fast approaching. It’s not Beng marrying that saddens me because watching your bestfriend gets married is an unexplicable happiness. It is her leaving for US that pains me. I don’t mean to be selfish when I say that we will no longer have her in our gimiks and trips but her staying in the US with not much company that breaks my heart. She may be with her husband-to-be but US is a completely clean slate change for her. Plus, I hope she believes me when I say that us not knowing Carl much is also another tough part of letting go of her. I pray that she be genuinely happy and inspired. There are many things I want to say but I guess, no matter what I say, there isn’t going to be any better way to show our support for her than to let go and believe that she can.

*** 

Joyce and I had those heart-to-heart conversations I super miss doing with her. I haven’t realized how much I’ve missed her when we lost her to law school. She’s one person whose balakang and golden falsetto chikadora voice could not be replaced by some Indian copycats (Love you Joyce! Can’t help it. haha). And now I think that Beng is marrying Carl but Joyce has been married to law school for years and I have to go through losing touch of a dear friend again. I sincerely pray though that Joyce, Maui and I can have the periodic meet-ups for meet-ups sake because hearing your friends giggle, laugh, offend and get someone offended is simply priceless and way much better than laughing in front of a glaring monitor.

I’m practically near tears now. Missing the SATC-ish days with Bebang, Botchok at Bogart…

bucket list

It’s a story of two terminally-ill guys who just happened to share the same hospital room. Bakit bucket?! For the last days of their lives they made list of things they wanted to do before they kick the bucket. So though barely even friends, they left together to pursue their to-do’s, learned lessons on what they really value in life along the way and ended up as bestfriends.

The movie is so touching and I have no doubt why my friends Joyce and Maui remembered me when they learned about the movie. Loveyah girls, I have no doubt too that my to-do’s in life are better done with you.

Death is a univeral truth and nobody escapes it. I don’t know if it’s really liberating to know how much time you have to work with. Known or unknown our times of death may be, I believe it’s important to have that forward thinking that our life is finite and that if there is anything we want to do, we should start doing our part for them to materialize.

Maui and I have our re-soul-utions, our version of our to-do lists. And after all my queries on purpose and my random lifechecks from time to time, it won’t be a surprise that I have a mental image of a loooot of things I want to do before I kick the bucket. I hope it helps to list them done so I will be reminded of my life’s ultimate targets. I’ll list down 15 for now:

1. Travel to all the continents of the world (Antartica excluded)

2. Backpack in Europe

3. Treat my family to a vacation trip

4. Try an aerial extreme sport (bungee-jumping, skydiving, flying trapeze)

5. Join in a retreat / pilgrimage

6. Send my youngest brother to college

7. Participate in a theater play

8. Donate blood

9. Organize an outreach program

10. Get published

11. Excel in a craft

12. Paint my personal portrait

13. Get a tattoo

14. Get married

15. Build my Emcee-ish house and drive my own SUV

According to the movie, when one dies, he is asked two questions: Did you find joy in your life? Have you given joy to others? I hope when I die, I can genuinely say yes to both.

Let me know what’s on your bucket list. Bakit? Wala lang.

meme time

February 7, 2008

Here’s a meme from Alia. marked 21. Great.

1. Start at ’start copy here’.
2. Put an X on the things you’ve done.
3. Tag how-many-[X]s people.
4. Post with title "I’ve done ___*how-many-[X]* of 35 stupid things".

*start copy here*
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have fell out/off of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have ran into a tree. (high school… haha)
[ ] You have tried to lick your elbow.
[ ] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[ ]You just tried to sing them.

[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
[ ] Your hair is/was blond.
[ ] You’ve put metal in the microwave.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling when you wake up.
[x] You’ve fallen asleep in class (and work) 
[x] You have tripped over your own feet.

[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about. (always!)
[ ] You have forgotten to breathe.
[ ]You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[x] You use your fingers to do simple math
[x] You have eaten a bug (ants actually but same animal kingdom sila so that counts)
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something else (guilty!)
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out.
[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand.  

[  ]You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you dont.
[ ] You break a lot of things.
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you’re confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ ] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures or words in the texture of the ceiling.
[ ] The word "uh" is used many times a day.  

*end copy here*

Won’t be tagging anyone. : )

10 THINGS

Another meme. This time, I was tagged by Grace (a blog correspondent who sits behind me in one of my classes but we rarely talk to each other… hehe).

1. My tan never fades. haha… melanin overload!

2. I don’t know how to cook rice. I don’t have the will to learn because then I’ll have no excuse to not cook rice but other than rice I love cooking.

3. I account all my expenses now. Been doing this for the past three months. So far so good. At least may silbi ang Starbucks planner but truthfully, it’ s just plain accounting of expenses with no financial management. : (

4. I am a workaholic. A surprise to some of my friends since they feel that I’m always the happy-go-lucky type. When it comes it work, I can be quite OC.

5. I use my allergy rhinitis as an excuse to pass on cleaning. hehe… (Actually, I’d rather wash the dishes or clean the bathroom than sweep the floor. Water kasi ang zodiac sign ko. hehe)

6. I once used allergy meds (see above) as sleeping pills. Adik! hehe 

7. I’m a strong advocate of I think therefore I am mantra.

8. I think I’m clairvoyant therefore I am. hehe.. Tarot cards, palm reading, dream interpretation, past lives. They all interest me.

9. I don’t have a sport or a talent at all. To put it on an less hurtful note, I am jack of all trades but a master of nothing. But seriously, sometimes I wonder where I’m really good at.

10. I have weird feelings towards my MBA life now. I only consider few as my friends. Di na ako ang bangkera ng kwentuhan. Well, it’s just that sometimes I have thoughts that I have a life other than MBA and i like it better. Ewan. Weird!

Sorry Grace. I just wrote whatever pops my mind kaya parang walang kwenta mga sinulat ko. hehe. Better answers here.

I’m not tagging anyone ulit. hehe