connecting the dots

January 30, 2008

Steve Jobs said it’s important to have faith that the dots of one’s life will connect down the road though the journey sometimes do not show a clear path. For some time, it was what was keeping me faithful, faith itself. Faith in God, faith in myself, faith in some forces of nature that probably, hopefully, something better is coming my way. Faith that the dots are connected!

For the longest time, I’ve been itching to leave my graveyard shift job. I totally love everything about my job. I’ve got the best boss. I love what I’m doing. I have greatest friends in the office! These three are already on the higher scale of Maslow’s hierarchy… hehe. Yadayada. The list of reasons to stay is endless.  I liked almost  everything about it but the schedule. So I’ve been in semi-active jobsearch for some time but the dizizit job just never came. I didn’t know if I was just too underqualified or my MBA schedule was such a liability. To console myself, I would just say that it was perhaps that of the latter reason but nevertheless there were those inferiority complex periods when you just couldn’t help but lose the faith in yourself.

Come registration time, I only enrolled 2 subject because of my workload plus part of me was hoping that I could transfer to a new job requiring me to adjust in my new workplace.

Then the good news came! My boss wants to keep me whatever it takes. I’m in heaven! So to make the longer story just long enough: I’m now working in flexible normal hours in a function I like, for my boss that I uber-love, in an environment I need not adjust. It’s like everything better than what I wanted. God has planned something grander for me. I guess He’s just training me with the virtue of patience!

So that connects the dot why I got so frustrated that first day-job offer was for a function I don’t much like. That connects the dot why my pekner left me. That connects the dot why I did not get into the company I suuuper like. That explains!

To my friends who never lost faith in me, who prayed for me, who were simply there for me during the low times, thank you so much! To my roommates Maui and Mica, to my MBA supah-buddies Urven and Anj (specially Anj for that spontaneous dine-out at Morato), to the Tin and Gabe, and to my ever-understanding konsintidor mother,  thank you so much! Secretive na ko sa lagay na yan!

purpose

January 23, 2008

In OpMan class earlier, we were required pala to submit a reaction paper. I thought it was due on Friday but honestly I was not too sure. I didn’t even bother to ask my classmates. Worse, I wasn’t even sure whom I could have asked.  Well, that’s my worry this term, I feel so lonely. Well, it’s not that I don’t have friends but my closest friends are: Urven - on LOA, Anj & Francis- on different sked, Boyen & Ronald- on different sked but we’re classmates on 1 subject. I have other classmates whom I chit-chat with, have gone out-of-town with pa nga but right now I feel so out of place because it seems that they already have their own circles. I can be at ease around them but you can’t help it when they start to have private jokes. So there! I’m alone, lonely, OP and I am not so used to this feeling. I’ve never been in such a situation before. Grabe!

Because of this I’m-all-alone drama, part of me started to ask what really is my purpose in taking MBA. (I was humming Purpose of Avenue Q to myself in the middle of the class. Purpose. It keeps you going strong like a car with a full tank of gas. Purpose.) MBA seemed to give me extraordinary emotions and thrills, ups and downs, that I don’t get anywhere else but sometimes, I can’t help wonder, is it really worth it. With this, am I on the right track to my life’s purpose?

I’m so swamped with work and I hardly have time to read my books (academic and leisure… hehe) but I felt that I have to right this. I miss my MBA buddies!     : ( I wouldn’t have felt this if they were with me.

so far so good

January 15, 2008

So far, I’m loving 2008! New year is good because it sets me to change my perspective a bit a be a little more optimistic on things.

NEW HOUSE: We have moved to a new house. I now share it with my sisses: Maui, Mica, Rachelle and Jobelle. It actually has a similar floor plan as H6, our soro house at LB. Now, we are so excited about planning for our housewarming, or should I say housewarning. I guess we don’t have to go to Ruthie’s place to have a house party.

NEW PLACE: My family spent an extra post-holiday treat at Palawan - Puerto Princesa and El Nido. I am so toasted but I don’t care because I just had one of my best trips to date. I still can’t get over the the vacation spirit!

NEW TERM: It’s our third term already. This time, I decided to take fewer load. Only 2 subjects this time instead of the recommended 3. Pacing for me! There’s no rush to finish anyway. I’m very excited with the subjects I’m taking but the sad thing is, Urven is taking an LOA for the term. I’ll miss my MBA buddy!

NEW OFFICE AURA: I’m now the quiet type! Nyahaha… because I  have no choice. I miss my Pekner but I’m not sure if I wanted a new pekner!

NEW PLAN: I’m thinking of a new plan… Basta! hehe…