last thought

You know how they say that the last thought before you sleep is the most important thing in your life. So true! I guess another reason why my sleeps are short besides my many activities and body clock is that I am very restless. You will not believe that sometimes I am just wide awake after a long busy day and there is nothing much to do. So many thoughts are racing through my mind.

Actually my thoughts lately are more on how hard it is for me to look for another job. I guess it is part of maturity that you don't just grab the first company that offers to accept you. You simply don't settle too easily. There has to be the dizizit* factor. So there is this company that I really like and I am adhering strongly on my "the Secret" mantra. In fact I have over-visualized things I guess that I even set a timeline already of things like when is the most likely time I'd resign and start work. I timeframed it in such a way that it would be just in time for my term break allowing me to adjust and calculate if I'd get full load next term. But then, reality is so skewed from my plan. I am starting to lose HOPE. All I can rely on now is faith.

Lord, I don't know what your plans are. It may be even more grand than I set. I am so careful to ask for specifics because I might just get it but it's not really the best for me so I am just praying that your will be done. Grant me the patience to endure the waiting because it's not really my virtue. Thank You Lord in advance! : )

Timing, after all, is everything!

*dizizit - "this is it!", something meant solely for you! haha