last thought

You know how they say that the last thought before you sleep is the most important thing in your life. So true! I guess another reason why my sleeps are short besides my many activities and body clock is that I am very restless. You will not believe that sometimes I am just wide awake after a long busy day and there is nothing much to do. So many thoughts are racing through my mind.

Actually my thoughts lately are more on how hard it is for me to look for another job. I guess it is part of maturity that you don't just grab the first company that offers to accept you. You simply don't settle too easily. There has to be the dizizit* factor. So there is this company that I really like and I am adhering strongly on my "the Secret" mantra. In fact I have over-visualized things I guess that I even set a timeline already of things like when is the most likely time I'd resign and start work. I timeframed it in such a way that it would be just in time for my term break allowing me to adjust and calculate if I'd get full load next term. But then, reality is so skewed from my plan. I am starting to lose HOPE. All I can rely on now is faith.

Lord, I don't know what your plans are. It may be even more grand than I set. I am so careful to ask for specifics because I might just get it but it's not really the best for me so I am just praying that your will be done. Grant me the patience to endure the waiting because it's not really my virtue. Thank You Lord in advance! : )

Timing, after all, is everything!

*dizizit - "this is it!", something meant solely for you! haha

realizations

The last weekend of the month has been the busiest for me. I had my midterms, called Friday off from work and had a bunch of "sessions" with friends. As much as I want to have a detailed story of my 'sessions', I'll put my realizations instead.  

1. I can't say NO to Econsoc and DLS. Well I just love these people. I barely slept these past few days but I still can't say NO to their invites. I knew I wanted to say no and I knew they wouldn't mind especially if I said I haven't slept well for days but I just can't. Or I just don't want. I thought I was assertive but I really don't know how to say no. Ghia and Ruthie, Happy Birthday! I hope our future parties at Montalban, Rizal won't start at 1am again. Haha! Mica, Maui, Ghia and Corleai, love the spontaneity! Natututo na kayo. haha. Tin and Dino, thanks so napakaagang planning turned roadtrip!

2. EconSoc loves me. haha! sounds self-important! haha. But seriously, I was so surprised with the number of people who came for the Halloween party. I know they came not because I was the one who invited them but they just wanted to do something that Friday. Actully, mas natuwa ako sa thought na sumunod sila sa dresscode. High time Econsoc learns the art of dresscoding.

3. I can survive without much sleep. This weekend, I must have only slept half my normal sleeping time (but my normal sleeping time isn't really something you'd call normal) to think that I called Friday off from work. What can I say? Look at realization number 1.

4. Sometimes, everything in the world just conspires against you. During my midterms in Finance, when I looked at my calculator, it was not working. As in nada! I had to use my phone and secretly borrow my seatmate's calcu. Then the following morning, when I was clearing my bag, my calcu was perfectly working. Ka-offend!

5. Not because it is more expensive, it is better. After watching Philippine Madrigal Singers sing half of their repertoire in French, we can't help but sleep at CCP. Heck! Their free performance at Greenbelt was better!

6. I am a very transparent person. I can't conceal whatever I am feeling. I don't know if it is just because of #4 or #3 isn't so true after all.

7. Birthdays make me feel depressed. I don't know but despite the exictement of all the planning of birthday specials, I feel that I am going to have another attack of LSE near my birthday.

8. I can live without smoking! Alas, after my umpteenth effort to quit smoking and after almost everyone I know is no longer convinced that I could quit, I am proud to say that I haven't smoked even a single stick since October 1 because that was my New Fiscal Year's resolution. haha

9. Not everything comes in normal packages of 10s like  ten commandments, 10 sticks per half-pack, 10 what-have-yous so I'll only have 9 realizations.

how i met him

I'm hooked with another series: How I met your mother. This is a story about Ted's flashback as he  retells his kids the story of how he met their mother. The pressure to search for his wife started when his two best friends, Marshall and Lily got engaged. His super hilarious friend Barney (my favorite) always has these weird ideas for him to find his match. There is also Robin, the she's-the-one-I'm-going-to-marry-turned-friend-turned-girlfriend of Ted.

I am done with the first season and before going to sleep I watch a few episodes. Can't contain my laughters. This series so reminds me of Friends although the latter is of course unbeatable.

Actually, there are parts where Ted's kids are complaining of this whole flashback thing and insisted that their father just tell the part where he actually meets their mother. But Ted keeps saying that every part is essential in the story. It's already on it's 3rd  season but we don't know for sure yet who the mother is. Got me into thinking that perhaps that's how my story would go of how i met him. Baka kabugin ko ang 10 seasons ng Friends. hehe

hmmm…

I don’t know what’s wrong but I think that my life is turning into a big bore. There is nothing too exciting to talk about. Sometimes when I talk to my friends and I see their blankless reaction  I ask myself after why I ever share something. Some sort of guilt dawns me that perhaps the person I am talking to is thinking that he/she should react courteously but sensing that there is no point of reacting, simply says "ahh, talaga?"

It’s not that there is nothing to do. In fact there are many things to do. Oftentimes though I feel that I am becoming the mechanical and monotonous slave that we all dread.

I am a big series fan! Perhaps the reason I’m so much into these flicks is that in a few minutes I can be a doctor, an alternative medicine practitioner, a lawyer, a columnist,  a mathematician, a time traveler. I even get excited at the thought of being a prisoner or a fugitive. I don’t really have a clear self-image so I just dwell and relate to whatever I see.

I am Dr. House who blames everything around him but himself. I am Meredith Grey who always feels that I am in the failing and losing end. I am Critina Yang who always feel that I am too strong for anything, but am I sure? I am Dr Violet Turner who always tries to psychoanalyze and help people around me but can’t deal with my own problems. I am AllyMcBeal who doesn’t exactly know what would make me happy. I am Carrie Bradshaw always hopeful in finding love in the ruins but always fails. I am Charlie Eppes who thinks everything can be solved like math problems. I am Hiro Nakamura who believes that timing is everything. I am Michael Scofield who is always ends up at the wrong places.  I am Emcee Isidro and I need help.

And what is the profound lesson I am trying to impart here. Nothing. Tsk tsk! I am so pathetic!

gigil post

I can't believe this! I got reprimanded by our Prof in front of the whole class. With matching patanong-tanong pa sa mga classmates ko na, "aren't you offended?" Me and my big mouth kasi. Wala namang bago sa pagiging pasaway ko! Tanggap na ng sangkalipunan ang kaingayan ko. But kamown! Grad school na to?! Talaga bang eto ang kapalaran ko?

Last night pa naman, ka-chat ko si kaututang-dila Joyce Manongsong, ang walang puknat kong kaututang dila since College days. College days, lagi na kami napapag-initan ng mga Prof. Then I lost Joyce to law school. Tapos nabalitaan ko na kahit sa law school, napapagalitan pa rin siya dahil sa kaingayan. haha. I thought I was over that stage. I thought wrong!

Nakakagigil ka talaga Prof Baby Girl!