dos por dos

September 7, 2007

 This week, Pekner Mikmik and I celebrate our second year in Sykes. Wow Pekner! We're so great. Nagtagal din ako sa work sa wakas haha. Though we know that two years is too short a period to say that you've stayed long in a company, you know for a fact that that is already a milestone for me.

Anyway, I owe Cesar a lot for referring us here. For introducing us to what we thought would be just our buffer jobs. For opening our horizon to the wonderful yet misconceived world of BPO and graveyard shifts.

Same goes to BFF Jansen for our breakfast sessions at our comfort zone. For being the handy (?) driver/ drinking buddy / yosi buddy / QLC chatmate.

Of course, to the friends we gained here. The Puritas: Marilyn, Jo-Ann, Germs, Martha, Lulette. Your mommies circle: Eden, Claire, Joyce, etc. We wouldn't have stayed this long if not for their company.

To Chuck Sykes and Mike Henderson, thanks for the night differential, transpo allowances, meal allowance, OTs, VL and SL credits which up til now I feel I don't deserve. Mike H, you're like a suger daddy in disguise of a pirate, rock star (or whatever future character that suits you in year-end parties) to us. Haha! Bonus naman jan!

And to you Pekner…

 I thank you not just for the gazillion times you make excuses for me so I can have longer lunch-outs, even gimiks within shift but for listening to my gimik chikkas even though they can be tiring at times.  

Thanks not just for blindlessly accepting my need to have my nth yosi break but also for joining me for company sake at times because I can't smoke alone.

Thanks not just for the  review periods which become chikahan sessions but also for believing I can work things out. 

Thanks not just for letting me sleep at times but also for understanding and forgiving me for not making relyebo efforts… haha. 

Thanks not just for letting me peek in your PC even though I can always open them on my own but thanks for analyzing these simple habits even I myself am not aware of.

Thanks for letting me beat you in bounce out, haha (we thought we had to call Yahoo Games support for that.) Thanks not just for the PEP updates but for listening to my mas madramang buhay.

I thank you not just for always getting water for me because I'm too lazy to get mine but for sharing the same laziness to wash the dishes. Pordat, let us thanks the manufactureres of disposable plates, spoon, fork, styro-cups and microwavable wares. hehe… Pero come to think of it. Hindi ako ganito katamad kung hindi ikaw ang Pekner ko. Napipilitan lang ako kasi baka mahiya kang ipakita ang true colors mo!

Well, I've known you since HS, naks, pero these last two years lang ako napaisip na " Aah, ok naman pala tong si Mikmik!" hehe.. jukas! Hangswerte ko Pekner kita! Cheers! Libre ka naman dyan!

   

LSE mode

September 4, 2007

Last night I felt an inexplicable kind of sadness, like there are dementors around. It's not one of those Quarter Life Crisis episodes again. Just a random attack of Low Self-Esteem Syndrome. No more QLC. Here comes LSE! I believe that I have internalized well 'The Secret' but last night I just can't bring myself to loosen up and just think of happy thoughts. It's just one of those "moments" and I simply can't help it.

It was US holiday yesterday so we didn't have work. My office friends and I went to a comedy bar. Surrounded by laughing people yet I can't enjoy the night as much as I want to. I was enjoying though I know that things are different. Random LSE thoughts kept popping on my mind like I'm a failure and that that I am not any more mature than the happy-go-lucky Emcee who left UPLB years ago. I didn't want to spoil the  night. Of course the ever-reliable Miguel was with me. (I drowned myself with beer hoping I could just sleep all day but my dreams are also LSE-ish. Damn!) So I texted my closest friends about my LSE syndrome but sadly though I felt worse. Reading their replies, I felt that they can't understand me. Like I was going through an intentionally unsharable  misery if there is ever such a thing. It was like a pain meant only for me. I also texted my classmates and though i know they hear me, I don't feel any less settled. But I'm thankful though, very thankful for my friends who continue to try to understand. I know their getting tired of my pathetic drama like the world revolves around me. I'm sorry guys. I just can't help it.

1st trime: done!

September 1, 2007

Finally the 1st term is over! It has really been a good term for me (I'm not talking about the grades her). It was not as toxic as I've thought or feeling ko lang yon kasi medyo madami akong pasaway moves. haha! Definitely, deciding to take my MBA is one of the most mature decisions I've done (at di ako nag-decision tree nysn!). For months I have no attacks of QuarterLY life crisis. That alone is a celebration for my friends!  

Of course there had been "why am I doing this?"-moments.  I had to bear with the more than 2 hours of travel time back and forth UP. I had to take the MRT everday. I had to sleep less than 6 hours. I had to pass on gimiks. Since I also am working on night shift, after-class meetings are so difficult. And I forgot the toughest reason (though I'm still thinking which between this and passing on gimiks tops the chart… haha) :  I had to study again! Believe me, if you really knew me in college you would wonder why am I studying again.

Then things just became a matter of habit. I had to entertain myself with MRT drama:  ang drama ng totoong commuter. The sleep I had to manage on weekends. Besides,  I actually overslept the rest of my pre-MBA life..haha! The gimiks are still managed somehow… palalampasin ko ba naman yon?! Thanks to my super-understanding friends though I still can't forgive myself for not joining the Asian Invasion.. haha!

course I also had my crushes in class (Nampucha! Nay ganoong factor talaga?! How sweet it is to be loved by Yu! So you must be the husband? haha… Pucha! Kinikilig ako! Grabe! Wala talaga akong na-miss na class mo. Kesehodang may bagyo, susugod talaga ako sa UP para sayo! Aylabyu! haha! At kung merong one love, one lifetime si quickmelt,  meron din one major crush, one trime si Emcee. (The one I mentioned earlier, hindi major crush yon. Tinatawag yong pag-ibig! haha) Hayokong sabihin kung sino! Nagba-blush nako!

But the best part are my new found friends. I thought before that finding friends in grad school wouldn't be that easy because these people already have their own set of friends to begin with but I thought wrong. Perhaps it's the same work-school-pressure we try to survive in. To the great friends I met this term, I owe you guys the New and Improved Emcee: No QLC! (Parang nilalakong pagkaing no MSG ) Special thanks to Urven my supah-buddy, to Papa Boyen aka driver / alarm signal / sugar daddy,  to JC and Anj, my baby gurls, to Francis and Ronald, my autistic friends dahil most of the times may sarili kayong mundo. To the rest of the upmbanyt pips, mabuhay ang pang-gabi! More trime with a blast!

Cheers!