on getting old

Last weekend, my friends in the class organized a weekend Tagaytay getaway. I haven't gone home to Batangas as often as I used to because my weekends are always jumpacked but I couldn't resist the invitation. Besides I was feeling really down towards the end of the month. With the whatever that is that suddenly attacks people in their tweeners, I knew I needed another break (kahit di pa ko over sa Calatagan trip namin). Some of them knew what's bugging me lately. They, belonging to the same age group as mine, have the same existential questioning at times. So they insisted that we ought to join the company of those who don't belong in our generation (sorry naman!).

It was fun though I was awake 26 hours straight that day, slept for barely 6 hours before that, and was awake 22 hours straight before that. Whew! Then later that day, as part of chikahan blues, someone opened that she is happily separated. She's still working on the annulment papers. You get the picture. Someone opened about his issues on settling down. Blah blah blahs. I comment a little out of courtesy but at the back of my mind I was thinking, my problems are nothing compared to what they have. Theirs are just way too complicated. I felt my problems are really insignificant and had I opened I will sound like a spoiled brat. I suddenly became scared of getting old. I don't think I'm ready for complex life issues.

 ~o~

By the way I think the fact that I'm getting old is inevitable. Life is short so before I reach my finish line, it's high time that I do my MY LIFE's TO-DO LIST. And this is one of those:

Haha! Mukhang effortless pero katakot-takot na mura ang namutawi sa bibig ko nyan! I'm so proud, kami lang ni Anj nagpalagay ng ishnaku na yan. Conquer thy fear!

~o~

Lately, there are issues in EconSoc egroups! Is it just the issue per se that I don't like to comment on, or that I'm getting older, or that I've become apathetic? Hello! This is EconSoc! This is practically my life. Sometimes I don't even bother to read the emails. : (

~o~

September 2007 is really a fun-filled month for me. Funny because I said that I was feeling a bit down towards the end of the month. But without the bitter darling, the sweet moments ain't that sweet! hehe. So I still say that it's really a good month for me. In fact, this would easily top that charts for best month in 2007 although I'm excited about our November plans.  Perhaps because when we get older and priorities change and schedules become ridiculous, it's a blessing to find time to get along with people that really matter.