QLC strikes back again!

For a long time I thought I was over it. Everything was smooth sailing and then KABOOM! That was the problem. Everything was in sweet harmony! I am not legitimately the title-holder of the most monotonous life if you can call this a life. I stay at the office for roughly ten hours. Most of this time, I’m not doing anything actually productive. Just typical corporate blah-blahs! I have random dinners and breakfasts with the close friends. And as I see it these “random” chitchats have now become rhythmic! I hate being part of statistics.

My family and closest friends can testify that I am one person who easily gets bored. That’s why, up til now I am still wondering what career path should I choose. My first job was in a typical corporate arena. Typically, as a first job, it was an eye-opener for me. I thought monotonous office work was not for me. I resigned and tried my luck on research. Fortunately (and unfortunately), I got a job as a research assistant in a UN-funded project. But somewhere along the way, I felt that it still wasn’t the career path I want to pursue. I resigned again and this time I have no plans at all what to do next. I figured out that there were many things I missed to do after I graduated. I had my driving lessons. I read more book. I took the Prof exam (forgot what they call it), though I know it won’t be of any use since I don’t have plans of working for the government. Travelled a lot. I eventually took a job in a call center and fortunately got an analyst postion.

Now it’s been more than a year and surprisingly, my buffer job is no longer for buffer sake! I’m actually enjoying it. In between my free times and long weekends, I still travel. I painted once (something that took me longer time to plan and be interested than actually doing it), read more and more, explored photography, wicca, particularly tarot cards reading. Funny but true! I find my life really becoming boring and boring by the day! Is this really the life I want? Is this what my heart truly desires?

Call me over-analyzing things but I think I am in the crossroads of my life wherein I should be deciding on what I really want. I can’t wait for five years more and realize that this is something that I don’t want and unlearn the things I am already used to doing.

This morning I received a text message from my friend BYN saying she has a quarter-life crisis. I thought it was a sign that people have always associated me to quarter-life crisis. I don’t have the answers to fellow QLC victims but I sure am willing to share what I am going through. I’m just afraid it will make us like drinking buddies! Inakay ng bulag ang kapwa bulag. haha. Byn is in the US so drinking buddies is not a possible scenario for the mean time. Well, Bynie, just stick around! We’ll get over this! We don’t have the answers but who the hell knows the answers anyways? In God’s perfect timing, everything’s gonna be alright. As I always say, timing is everything!